Happy 2010!!!

WOW! Been so long and its finally 2010!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!

What i have learnt in the past year is that majority of people are selfish pieces of shit that forget everything that had any meaning, and forget that you ever existed. Also, people only want to use you so they can excel in life.

For 2010, i have many many plans. My first plan is that I am going to continue my education and get some good accounting certifications. If all goes well, I should be done in a couple of years and would possess in my hands something really powerful. Afterward, if things go really well, I will be enhancing my career and moving on to bigger and better things.

I learned so much in the past decade, that when I look back, I am still dumbfounded that I have survived it. So, if I wanted to continue this change, I would try to see what other talents I have. What else am I capable of achieving in this life? I am not going to stop or ever plan to. I want to be something in life, and I want it big. I know I am smart, patient, and ready for the challenges. So I can do it.

Last but not least,

Happy 2010! You all deserve happiness if you really wanted to.

MERRY X'MAS!

When I was young, I always wonder what exactly is ‘Xmas’. Yeah, we all know it stands for the celebration on 25th December but why Xmas instead of the actual spelling of… Christmas? Do you all know why? Are you all curious?

From what I understand, the ‘x’ in the Xmas equation is akin to the ‘x’ in algebra. It simply means the ‘x’ in the Xmas equation can be anything you want it to be. Yes, if you think Xmas is the short-form of Christmas, you're wrong...

Christmas is spelt as “Christ”-mas because it is the date of the birth of Jesus Christ, which made 25th December a religious festival. Christ is the centre of it all. But the world has commercialised the day so extravagantly that it became nothing more than a season to let loose ourselves to shop, eat and party.

Therefore, Xmas to you can be shoppingmas, or perhaps feastmas, or to some… holidaymas. That is what the world wants Christmas to be. But yet, amidst it all, Christmas is the most unique religious celebration of all. Why? That’s probably a discussion for another day.

Today, I want to say that Christ is still the X for my Xmas… it is still Christmas to me. And I want to wish all Christian readers a very Blessed Christmas.

You can do it!

When I was little, everyone would always tell me that I could do anything that I wanted. Adults would tell me that I could achieve anything, go anywhere or be anything that I wanted when I grew up.

Well, I have grown up. And now those same people are the first to tell me that I can’t - that it’s too hard, too risky or just downright impossible. Why do we fan the flames of a child’s dreams, yet extinguish the desires of other adults?

At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter what family, friends or strangers might think. The whole world can say, “You can’t.” But it only takes one person to believe in you.

And that one person is you.

Just in case you need backup: I believe in you, too.

Don’t let everyone else define your reality or diminish your dreams. If you want it - if you really, really want it - and if you are willing to put energy and effort into manifesting your desires… well, I wouldn’t want to bet against you.

You might encounter a million red lights. But it only takes one green light - YOUR green light.

I’m here to remind you that, “Yes, you can.”

U like squid??

I heard this story from other people but whether it is true or otherwise, no one knows…

Anyways, as we all know, fishermen go to sea and spend quite a substantial amount of time there. I was told that it may be as long as weeks, or even more than a month. And ya’ know, spending time out in the sea for such a long period of time tends to result in extreme boredom and loneliness when fishermen are not actively engaging in fishing activities.

To entertain themselves, they smoke, joke and drink. But then again, they can’t be doing that all the time. So what else do they do?... They masturbate. And over time, masturbation went through evolution…

Apparently, the inside of squid resembles the female love canal. And so, it was said that fishermen use squid as a masturbation tool. Yup… they wrap their pole with a squid and do the up and down motion which produces the white lotion.

Have you heard of this before? Is it true?
And… are you a squid lover?

NO for me!

I.D.I,O,T,S

Have you ever encounter some idiots who just irritate the shit out of you? I am talking about generic idiots, performing idiotic acts that are just pure irritating. They may be different people, but they can be doing the same idiotic things. Let me name you a few…

One type of generic idiots whom I always encounter is those whom I called I-must-press-the-button idiot, always appearing in elevator lobbies. When I am the first to reach the elevator lobby and press the “up” button, the second fella who reaches the lobby just have to do the same. There will be a whole bunch of such idiots who will keep pressing the button, despite knowing that it has been pressed and it won't make the elevator comes faster, all the way till the elevator arrives. Worse, some of these idiots will press it a few times and look at you as though it’s your fault that the elevator is slow. Bunch of idiots!

Next are those idiots who hog the line. No, I am not talking about traffic or any sort of queue, I am talking about those who hog the lines in a economy rice store. These idiots will just stare at the dishes as though they are choosing their life partners. C’mon, make up your mind and get out of the way. How much it costs and how good it tastes will not change if you give them your idiotic stare. Worse, there are those who take one dish and stand there like a model… ponder and hog the line. For goodness sake, once you’ve taken your pick, choose your next dish or pay! What an idiot.

The list goes on but i do not want to carry on whinging. Nuff said.. Its the weekend and its time to relax..

Wish you guys a fabulous weekend!

Flooded with emails

I am sure most of you will agree that working life nowadays evolve around answering e-mails. As I was clearing my inbox and answering some of the so called “urgent” e-mails, I wondered… how was working life like before the days of e-mails?

On any given day, there will be a few mails coming in at the same time inquiring about different situations which require my advice. And in a typical corporate scenario, these inquiries demand immediate reply. And it’s not any ordinary reply. It requires thinking and sometimes, some level of research.

How are these done before the time of e-mails? Through telephone? If it’s through phone, at least you will be engaged on one line if there are 2 inquiries coming in. But with e-mails, you can have up to 10 inquiries in an hour. And inquiries are the light stuff. It can be agreements, contracts or any form of documents being sent over which require my review and comments. And as usual, everything is urgent. If you take more than a week to reply, it means that you are slow.

Without a doubt, the existence of e-mails has accelerated the pace at which we work. We are now required to provide answers, provide comments, review documents and meet all other unreasonable demands at light speed. It’s really crazy.

And don't you just hate it when one sends out a mail to a whole list of people re something and then someone else replies copying the whole army of people just to say "thank you" or something that we really don't give a shit about?? makes you want to go over and smack some senses into their heads, no?

One can say that we have become more efficient. But I just think we have been made to work like robots.

Working politics

I was having a chat with my friend yesterday and the topic of being a fresh graduate kinda trigger me to blog about it today. Well, I have my own time of being a fresh graduate working in a company without experiences and striving to survive working in it, meeting with sarcastic seniors and saving my job at least. I understand how a fresh graduate really feels when they started working in some company.

Firstly, they are taken lightly as they have no experience in anything. And, when they started asking questions on how to do this or what to do for that, they will be harshly answered as well as treated rudely with rude remarks. Seniors never think for a second to respect the fresh graduates / juniors. They never thought that some time ago, they were once a freshie. Well yes, perhaps some fresh graduates may not be as smart as seniors were when they were freshie but then again, it is a senior’s responsibility to groom the freshies up to meet with senior’s expected level, ain’t it? You know, like the mentor and mentee thingy?

No matter how busy a senior is at work, they shouldn’t throw out rude remarks or being a bitch about it and in fact, should be empowered enough to think on how to groom their juniors up so that they can help them to work on whatever the company is focusing on. Somehow, most companies are always lacking in good HR scheme to empower all their staffs. Seniors should always maintain a good and friendly environment that encourages discussion whenever necessary. However, people are always selfish, they wouldn’t share their knowledge, in fear of that their position is being threaten.

That is why, all of us somehow resent the place that we are working in because of the people.

L.O.V.E

I don’t know if I love you… Nor do I know what love is…

But… if love means dreaming of the person every night and doing the same thing when you’re awake, then I guess, this is love. If love means looking every where and every li’l thing seems to remind you of the person, then maybe, this is love. If love means dying to be with someone for every single second of your life, then, this could be love. If love means having to accept the person for who he is and who he’s not, then I believe, I’m in love. If love means being happy just to hear his voice or being complete when you know he calls, then, I’m in love. If love means losing my pride just to tell him what I feel, then, this could really be love.

And if love means hating the person for everything about him, yet deep inside you’re still longing to touch him, hear something about him, see him, or have a glimpse of his picture, talk to him, care for him, hug him, and kiss him, then . . . . dats true love

Its not the end

I know it is never easy when any marriage or relationship ends for whatever reason the split is whether you wanted it or not. Breaking up from a long term relationship can turn your world upside-down and gives you so much heartache.


Even when the relationship no longer good where it is probably full with resentment, disappointment and shattered dreams, yet when the relationship ends it still do hurt so much. When relationship ends, it disrupted our routines and responsibilities, and introduces uncertainties into our life.

Questions such as “what will be life without him/her?”, “will i find someone else?”, “will i end upbeing alone?”. These questions often seem worse than an unhappy relationship, thus people tend to stick with unhappy relationship due to fear.

Personally to me, ending a relationship is just the same as losing one part of your life such as the loss of companionship, support, hopes, dreams and plans. Thus, I find that either, I ended the relationship or my partner ended it, we are suppose to GRIEVE our losses. Mourn it!

I think it is a normal thing to feel sad, angry, confused and loss when the relationship ends. It will last as long as it takes but will lessen in time. We might feel frightened the most as we feel that we’ve lost everything in our life, we have nothing and that we do not know what to do next.

I believe that all the above are just part and parcel of the process of healing from break up. It is a normal cycle that one needs to go through before one able to moves on. It will be the hardest journey to heal one’s heart but once when it did, one will turn much wiser than before. Thats what i felt anyways..

Whats your choice??

When a person was betrayed under the spell of love, one will be suffering in a total anguish and one may get too depress over such pain, regardless which gender. Some may go through the thoughts of committing suicide when such drastic change happened, such as losing the other half of his/her life. However, those who are strong enough to stand up again will understand that what don’t break them will make them stronger.

The thing is after going through the entire break up cycle and having their ex asking for a chance back is something that I find totally disturbing. Why? Well, the first thing that came into my mind was, your bf/gf is not a “thing” to have and dump just like that. I wonder why one didn’t try or do their best to care and appreciate what they have but yet when one realized what they’ve lost, then they wanted it back.

Either way, the decision is going to be hard. But one thing is for sure, if you do go back into the relationship, you will be going back into a relationship that is cracked in a way, it''s not the same as before anymore. Even if its patched, there's gonna be lots of scratches and the trust is no longer there. And then, the pain will be tat much more.

Just my 2 cents..

Volunteer Day

I started my very first volunteering work on 13th Nov with my fellow HP-ites and of cos my BFF, HN, Kiki and Hei Hei. It was part of President Star's Charity which HP have been offering their volunteer services without fail. This year, HP managed to rope in over 1000 employees to offer their volunteer services.

We were dispatched to various organisations from the elderly, orphanages, autism kids, just to name a few. As for my team, we went to a day care centre for the elderly and people with dementia. Many precautions and care has to be taken especially we are dealing with elderly. Some of them need some physical assistance and some of them are wheel chaired bound. However most of them are very healthy and could walk on their own.

Our job as a volunteer there was to take good care of the old folks, entertain them,,talk to them, understand them and most importantly spend an enjoyable day with them. Did i mention, we also conduct games with them? Yeah! It was very entertaining and I can see their happy expressions.. One of the challenges is that, we have to communicate in dialects which is not my forte at all! hahahaha! I have always wanted to be a volunteer for some community work. I happened to get an email asking for help about this volunteering work and that was how we began.

Really very happy doing community work especially when you see them happy,you will feel happy too. After you volunteer your service, you feel happy because you have done something good; you feel useful because you can help others; you feel confident in yourself because you have the ability to contribute to the good of society. The feeling of happiness, of being useful, and of self-confidence has already broadened our vision.

Being a volunteer expands our vision by allowing us to transcend ourselves as receivers and become givers; we go from being a burden on society to being a positive force in society. Before we volunteered, we might not have known that being a volunteer could make our existence so meaningful and fulfilling. Being a volunteer makes me feel happy, useful, and confident and an eye opener too!

Thanks for giving me the chance!

Dope song

what ever you like
what ever you lik
what ever you li
what ever you l
what ever yo
what ever y
what ever
what eve
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the biggest "winner"?

Nobody wants a breakup if in the first place they are out to built a relationship. And "calling it off" during a quarrel or argument doesn't win a situation but sore it further. Ppl get carried away during a quarrel. Knowing that they're in the upper hand, 'breaking up' would be a good way of threatening the other party to back off n not argue further. But little do they know that it's a selfish act that cause hurts to the other party. Making them feel so unappreciated and the r/s seems like nothing to the person who initiate the breakup.

Yes, I used to be the childish person who wanted a breakup everytime there's a quarrel. I know I will win. Whatever wrong I done, I'll still win. On the surface I did won. But I lose more than I won. I lost my bf confidence, I lost my own conscience, I lost any lesson that came along, most of all, I lost to myself. Not being able to face my own mistakes, acting like a coward and initiate the breakup.

I remember hearing this from someone, ' you might win from the argument, but ask yourself, you think you're the one who ultimately win? In actual fact, you lost, because you fight your way through to fight for your 'right', while the other partner give in to you, considering your feelings.

I know why some people have this false sense of glorification when they are the ones initiating breakups. Seems like at the end of the day, they are the real losers of the situation, losing their partners, as well as their confidence.

:(

Why would my boyfriend accused me of cheating? I honestly, would never cheat on him with another guy. We been dating for a year and I haven't ever been unfaithful to him. He accused me of cheating saying he has all the facts of what I did that involves cheating. Why is he acting like this? This is making me sad and hurt. I don't know what I should do.

Cliff, i never knew you would think i am playing games with you. You ended this relationship so easily. I have never cheated on you. And as you move on, I hope you will remember me, remember us and all we used to be. I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I´ll never forget you my lover, i hope you never forget me.

All the best to you.

12 September, 18.06:42

White lies- Is it OK to lie to a person we care about for a kind reason, like to make him feel better and more secure, or to avoid a fight. As long as our heart is in the right place, even experts say that honesty isn't always required. You don't have to tell the whole truth if it will hurt your partner or if it's something he can't change. At the same time, not all lies are harmless even little white ones and some untruths can tear apart a relationship by damaging intimacy and trust. The worst kinds of lies result from trying to change who we really are or to minimize a serious problem in a relationship.

I got to know a friend from Facebook with whom i sometimes communicate. My partner happened to see our interactions -- and didn't like what he saw. But I know my exchanges don't mean anything, so they're not worth discussing. And one day, he came over to Singapore for a holiday and he wanted to meet me up for dinner. I do not know how to tell my partner and I told my partner a white lie. I know its vital to be honest and truthful but I know my partner wont be able to handle it and at the same time, I do not want to make my partner sad.

And I have a lil apprehensive of meeting him for dinner because i need to find a bed for my grandma as she had fallen off from the bed and i need to get a new bed for her. But cant find one then decided to meet my fren for dinner. And because of that, he broke the relationship with me And said I am two timing him. Accusing that I love him and stuffs. Honest to god, i didnt have any sexual relationships with this guy. It was just a dinner meeting, dats all.. Being accused like this is not a nice feeling.

Unfortunately, there are no guarantees that we won’t be hurt in relationships. It is a chance that we all take. I do not know what to say anymore and do. I have sacrificed alot for my partner, and maybe he didnt notice that. Anyways, the truth will prevails eventually. People can just say "move on" but.. it is so much easier said than done.

R.E.S.P.E.C.T

I was queuing up for Kentucky just now when the lady infront of me got very frustrated with the service staff and started shouting at her.

I think the staff is rather new and seems quite blur. The lady ordered a set meal which comes with a coleslaw and a mashed potato. But she told the staff that she doesn’t want the coleslaw and wanted a mashed potato instead. But the staff forgotten about it and placed the coleslaw into her take away box. The lady was so pissed off that she started scolding the staff. It was so bad that the manager have to step in and remove the coleslaw from the box.

Eeerr….. but excuse me. But it’s just a bloody coleslaw. If the staff forgets your special request, just remind her nicely. There is no need to scold a service staff over such small matters. In fact, there isn’t any need to scold a service staff. If they do anything wrongly, just tell them nicely and they will fix it. They are human afterall. Respect them.

Sigh. Why do some people behave like they are the king/queen just because they are paying customers? I really feel sorry for the service staff...

Artificially rich bastards

I reckon Singaporeans have a very lop-sided conception of what rich and poor are. Just the other day i was having my breakkie and overheard this woman in a clearly very expensive dress talking to her son. I overheard her telling the child, "look at this poor man. That’s what’s going to happen to you if you don’t study hard." She was actually talking about this young man that clears all the plates in the food court.

But cleaners aren’t necessary poor. Many are, certainly, but some get by just fine. I think it’s arrogant and overly presumptuous to label them all “poor”. The problem with Singaporeans is that they’re not really interested in affluence per se, but the symbols of affluence. Singaporeans don’t measure affluence by how much you earn, but how much you spend. Consequently, Singaporeans (young ones especially) seem to be spending more and more, without any significant rise in income to back them up. Frankly, i’m sick and tired of this obscene materialism.

Apparently, most young Singaporeans define success the exact same way, which is the exact same special way, which is but having lots of money, and a lifestyle to show for it. My advice - You don’t stay young and energetic forever. The only old people who age happily are the ones who have long given up being driven, and focus instead on living.

The driven ones run out of fuel much faster. Ironically, they need all the money they earn, to pay for foster care, because their kids abandon them and all the good food they’ve eaten has gotten to their heart and they need constant medical support.

Bloody Singaporeans!

Mixed Emotions

Am in a very very bad mood lately. Lots of things happening which is making me very depressed. Yet I cannot find a place to vent them out. Not even on this blog.

Just feel like staying in bed for the whole day. In the past, I could have done that by applying a couple days of leave. But now, I don’t have the options to do that. Lots of things needs my attention. Lots of meeting need to be attend. Can’t afford to hide myself under the blanket.

And the worst thing is that I need to pretend that everything is alright when things aren’t. Putting up a happy front and covering up the emotions deep inside. It’s tough. But I know I shouldn’t mix work with personal stuff.

Perhaps I should just forget about my personal stuff and concentrate on work. Maybe keeping myself busy at work can help me forget about the personal issues.

Sigh.......

Stop nudging me!

Do you have a list of things that will piss you off? I have. There are a couple of little things in life that piss me off. Maybe I’ll list down all of them 1 day.

Anyway, there is 1 thing that people like to do that never fail to piss me off. Sending me a nudge in MSN. Or rather sending me a nudge first thing he/she sees me on MSN. Even before sending me a msg or anything. And I’m at my computer when they nudge me.

Sometimes, i’m fine with it. But when someone over-done it, you get pissed off easily. There are times when you are listening to MP3 or watching video and turning the computer volume up to try to catch the words. Then this irritating noise comes along. And there are times when you are in a foul mood and the last thing you want people to do is to nudge you for no reason.

There is a purpose for nudge. Nudge is to alert the person when he didn’t reply your msg. It is not a greeting. Its rude. Its like pressing the car horn at people. (BTW, I hate it when people horn at me too.) I told them many times that I hate it when they does that. But people still continue to do it. Everytime…. Urrghhhh!

Happy 26th birthday!

As you all have probably seen by now, I haven’t exactly been updating my thoughts or movements in my life. Its not that I’ve been staying at home everyday with nothing to write, nothing could be further from the truth.

In fact, I’ve been so busy going out and catching up with friends, working and other activities and so on that I may have neglected my blog a little. Which is not to say I haven’t tried. Its weird to say that the last few times I tried to write anything serious, it turned out to be written in a pretty condescending tone and that is not exactly what I wanted to portray, so its been saved under drafts.

As you all know, its my birthday and my colleagues actually bought a cake and surprised me. I was really not expecting it, but I think the surprise didn’t really manifest in my face. Heh, it felt weird to be cutting a cake again.

Someone asked me, “How does it feel to be 26?”.
I thought for a while before answering, “I feel wiser”.

And that is the truth. Just a year ago things have been very different for me (perhaps, more in my mind than in my current status), and I’ve truly seen and experienced a lot more this year than in the years past. To state all the things that has made it so significant would be near impossible, but suffice to say certain happenings really changed my perspective on life, amongst others.

I was told to make a birthday wish before blowing out the candles. I actually had to take a few minutes to do it because I really couldn’t think of what I wanted in life for now, or what exactly it was I lacked. A year ago (and the year before, and before, and before) I would wish for good results, and/or someone to love, or something to that effect.

Today, I wished to live everyday happy.