Its been a long time since I got sick this bad.
Problem is I cannot afford to take medical leave.
The one time I got sick enough to take medical leave, the one time I cannot afford to take any.
I am a friendly and down to earth person and my friends could testify to that. Also I am a free=spirited, caring, loving and friendly person...with a simple dream and a believer.. A person who values friendship and love...respect would be the most important thing to me.
Its been a long time since I got sick this bad.
Problem is I cannot afford to take medical leave.
The one time I got sick enough to take medical leave, the one time I cannot afford to take any.
These are people who will do anything to see you fall and yet appear like your best friends. These are the survivals of our world, people who will not think twice in hurting you in order to survive. I hate it. Absolutely hated it. A pack of cunts!
When someone once told me that humans inherently are bad, I find that hard to believe. At that point of time, I was still a naive boy I guess. Then I believe that humans are inherently, well human. We are good inside, and we are not selfish. Never did it struck me that we are inherently black, bad and gross.
As the years go by, my beliefs have changed. I was picked upon, I was kicked upon when I was down and while trying to pick myself up, I was kicked further down and stepped upon.
When I needed help, there was none available. There were those who purposely choose to take advantage of me when I was down and asking for help.
In the end, I can only count on myself, there is no one to depend upon.
Its time I become a selfish person too. Its time I turn into something disgusting to save myself.
I do not think I am going to like it at all.
Sorry, i am just sick of my life..
I used to be a perfectionist. I guess I still am sometimes. I’m not your usual perfectionist though. I’ll wait for the perfect time to do something.
Like… “When I’m feeling good, have a good hair day, and someoen smiles at me, and I’m full of confidence, than I’ll go approach him or her and say hi”. And when its 9am, and the weather is good, and I’m not feeling tired, I’ll go running.
Of course, more likely than not, these doesn’t happen. And well, nothing happens. I don’t approach the people who smile at me, I don’t run. There is no place like here, and no time like now. We exist and live here and now, not in the future or the past.
Past experiences are important to guide us in future events, but it is not everything.
The future is important, but it means nothing if we don’t act now! More often than not I realise that by not doing anything now, the opportunity slips us by and never comes back again.
Especially if you wait for the perfect moment to do something.
Take it from me. I’ve waited for too long… to feel good, for the weather to be fine, whatever.They say that good things happen to people who wait. I say that’s rubbish. I waited too long waaaaay too many times and nothing usually happens. If anything, the thing I’m waiting for NEVER comes!
Good things happen to people who ACT, not wait! Yet of course, please don’t go charging at everything. Remember to think things out before acting. But don’t wait too long, or that window of opportunity may be gone forever. I have been there done that. FML..
Happy 2010! You all deserve happiness if you really wanted to.
When I was little, everyone would always tell me that I could do anything that I wanted. Adults would tell me that I could achieve anything, go anywhere or be anything that I wanted when I grew up.
Well, I have grown up. And now those same people are the first to tell me that I can’t - that it’s too hard, too risky or just downright impossible. Why do we fan the flames of a child’s dreams, yet extinguish the desires of other adults?
At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter what family, friends or strangers might think. The whole world can say, “You can’t.” But it only takes one person to believe in you.
And that one person is you.
Just in case you need backup: I believe in you, too.
Don’t let everyone else define your reality or diminish your dreams. If you want it - if you really, really want it - and if you are willing to put energy and effort into manifesting your desires… well, I wouldn’t want to bet against you.
You might encounter a million red lights. But it only takes one green light - YOUR green light.
I’m here to remind you that, “Yes, you can.”
I don’t know if I love you… Nor do I know what love is…
But… if love means dreaming of the person every night and doing the same thing when you’re awake, then I guess, this is love. If love means looking every where and every li’l thing seems to remind you of the person, then maybe, this is love. If love means dying to be with someone for every single second of your life, then, this could be love. If love means having to accept the person for who he is and who he’s not, then I believe, I’m in love. If love means being happy just to hear his voice or being complete when you know he calls, then, I’m in love. If love means losing my pride just to tell him what I feel, then, this could really be love.
And if love means hating the person for everything about him, yet deep inside you’re still longing to touch him, hear something about him, see him, or have a glimpse of his picture, talk to him, care for him, hug him, and kiss him, then . . . . dats true love
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