Sunday, January 31, 2010

I am sick!

I am sick. Down with a bad flu, fever and sorethroat!

Its been a long time since I got sick this bad.

Problem is I cannot afford to take medical leave.

The one time I got sick enough to take medical leave, the one time I cannot afford to take any.

Argh..

Thursday, January 28, 2010

CU**S

Humans, people, are the worst kind of animals that ever roamed earth. There are people, and there are people. People who live on a daily dosage of self arrogance and wear so many layers of masks that you never know for sure what is real. People who scheme behind your back and befriend you on the front. People who will not think twice to stab you deeply as they smile along with you. People who are always agreeing with you on the front and yet badmouthing you when your back is turned.

These are people who will do anything to see you fall and yet appear like your best friends. These are the survivals of our world, people who will not think twice in hurting you in order to survive. I hate it. Absolutely hated it. A pack of cunts!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Being understanding and respectful

Understanding, such a simple word and yet often not used enough. Why is it so difficult for us to be able to understand the people around you, why they are doing the things that they do and why they are reacting the way they are reacting? Sometimes all it takes is a little open-mindedness and a little sensitivity for us to put ourselves in the shoes of the people around you to avoid any misunderstandings and any unhappiness.

Sometimes, a little understanding and sensitivity are all it needs in the family but it would seem that such simple attibutes are sorely lacking in mine. I am so tired of these all. Not gonna spill the beans yet but those that are close to me will know what i am talking about..

Well.. such a life and family..

Thursday, January 21, 2010

End of the world?

I watched the show 2012 on DVD again. For those uninitiated, that is a another Armageddon themed show, just that it really out-do its predecessors with lots and lots of very good cinematography and stunning scenes of massive destructions. There were also scenes of good byes, teary regrets etc; those scenes always tug my heart when I saw it. How does anyone ever, ever know how to break the news to your loved ones that you are not gonna see them anymore? Its quite possibly the most cruel thing that anyone can do to their loved ones.

Then, I began to ask myself, what will I do if I know that today is my last day on earth?


Quite possibly, the first thing that will come to my mind will be how much regrets will I have and followed by how deep are these regrets. Because I strongly believe that every single human have regrets at some point in their life, one way or another. One who has no regrets in his life is either too egoistic to admit or have not really live his life at all. I for one tend to believe that its usually the former.

If you have not catch this show, rent, buy, borrow, steal or whatever. U have to watch this at least once! Ok, I am dozing off
here now, so gonna and go lie on my bed. Perhaps you should too.

Monday, January 18, 2010

love is all around us

Everybody have something to say about love. As for me, love is about acceptance, compromise, joy and affection. Love is about companionship. Love conquers all. But when the love is gone it is painful. They said that if you love someone, you should let him go. If he comes back to you, then he is yours. If he doesn’t, then he was never meant to be.

Let him go, you can’t really hold on to someone who doesn’t want you anymore, so there is no point in holding on. Of course it is hurt to let go, no one ever said it would be easy. If a man cannot pick out the gem from among the stones, then he cannot be a very wise and worthy man. If he/she can’t see you as the better man/woman, then maybe, there is a better man/woman out there for you.

So cheer up! Its not the end of the world yet ok?

Saturday, January 16, 2010

being selfish

When someone once told me that humans inherently are bad, I find that hard to believe. At that point of time, I was still a naive boy I guess. Then I believe that humans are inherently, well human. We are good inside, and we are not selfish. Never did it struck me that we are inherently black, bad and gross.

As the years go by, my beliefs have changed. I was picked upon, I was kicked upon when I was down and while trying to pick myself up, I was kicked further down and stepped upon.

When I needed help, there was none available. There were those who purposely choose to take advantage of me when I was down and asking for help.

In the end, I can only count on myself, there is no one to depend upon.

Its time I become a selfish person too. Its time I turn into something disgusting to save myself.

I do not think I am going to like it at all.

Sorry, i am just sick of my life..

Thursday, January 14, 2010

You are on candid camera!

Some days, we may just feel like frowning. Maybe something ‘bad’ has happened. A loss of some sort. Maybe you did something you’re not proud of. Maybe the cop stopped you for speeding, and wrote you a ticket. Bad day at work. Relationship woes. A myriad of possibilities.

As bad as life may seem, we actually really have it pretty good. Each one of us. Can you think of anyone who is worse off than you right now? I’m sure you probably can. And that there is reason enough for us to cheer up, and be happy. We all can choose how we live our lives. One of those choices is our general outlook we have. What do u want to potray?


Even if you are already happy, see if there’s a way you can offer, even just one more smile to the world. You can shine a light for others, just through the sim
ple act of a smile. I reckon a smile is something that when given away does not take away from the giver. Great reminder that we can make a great impact with such a small gesture. One thing’s for sure: when you smile, people smile back. It’s extremely rare to smile at someone and not have them smile back at you.

Sometimes, when I go grocery shopping, and I notice the checkout person is stressed, I like to smile at them and ask them how they are. Works every time. See the power of smile? So, if you don't have a smile, i will give u one of mine!

I AM SMILING AT YOU NOW.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Its now, not past and not the future

I used to be a perfectionist. I guess I still am sometimes. I’m not your usual perfectionist though. I’ll wait for the perfect time to do something.


Like… “When I’m feeling good, have a good hair day, and someoen smiles at me, and I’m full of confidence, than I’ll go approach him or her and say hi”. And when its 9am, and the weather is good, and I’m not feeling tired, I’ll go running.

Of course, more likely than not, these doesn’t happen. And well, nothing happens. I don’t approach the people who smile at me, I don’t run. There is no place like here, and no time like now. We exist and live here and now, not in the future or the past.

Past experiences are important to guide us in future events, but it is not everything.
The future is important, but it means nothing if we don’t act now! More often than not I realise that by not doing anything now, the opportunity slips us by and never comes back again.
Especially if you wait for the perfect moment to do something.

Take it from me. I’ve waited for too long… to feel good, for the weather to be fine, whatever.They say that good things happen to people who wait. I say that’s rubbish. I waited too long waaaaay too many times and nothing usually happens. If anything, the thing I’m waiting for NEVER comes!

Good things happen to people who ACT, not wait! Yet of course, please don’t go charging at everything. Remember to think things out before acting. But don’t wait too long, or that window of opportunity may be gone forever. I have been there done that. FML..

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Happy 2010!!!

WOW! Been so long and its finally 2010!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!

What i have learnt in the past year is that majority of people are selfish pieces of shit that forget everything that had any meaning, and forget that you ever existed. Also, people only want to use you so they can excel in life.

For 2010, i have many many plans. My first plan is that I am going to continue my education and get some good accounting certifications. If all goes well, I should be done in a couple of years and would possess in my hands something really powerful. Afterward, if things go really well, I will be enhancing my career and moving on to bigger and better things.

I learned so much in the past decade, that when I look back, I am still dumbfounded that I have survived it. So, if I wanted to continue this change, I would try to see what other talents I have. What else am I capable of achieving in this life? I am not going to stop or ever plan to. I want to be something in life, and I want it big. I know I am smart, patient, and ready for the challenges. So I can do it.

Last but not least,

Happy 2010! You all deserve happiness if you really wanted to.

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Friday, December 25, 2009

MERRY X'MAS!

When I was young, I always wonder what exactly is ‘Xmas’. Yeah, we all know it stands for the celebration on 25th December but why Xmas instead of the actual spelling of… Christmas? Do you all know why? Are you all curious?

From what I understand, the ‘x’ in the Xmas equation is akin to the ‘x’ in algebra. It simply means the ‘x’ in the Xmas equation can be anything you want it to be. Yes, if you think Xmas is the short-form of Christmas, you're wrong...

Christmas is spelt as “Christ”-mas because it is the date of the birth of Jesus Christ, which made 25th December a religious festival. Christ is the centre of it all. But the world has commercialised the day so extravagantly that it became nothing more than a season to let loose ourselves to shop, eat and party.

Therefore, Xmas to you can be shoppingmas, or perhaps feastmas, or to some… holidaymas. That is what the world wants Christmas to be. But yet, amidst it all, Christmas is the most unique religious celebration of all. Why? That’s probably a discussion for another day.

Today, I want to say that Christ is still the X for my Xmas… it is still Christmas to me. And I want to wish all Christian readers a very Blessed Christmas.

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Friday, December 18, 2009

You can do it!

When I was little, everyone would always tell me that I could do anything that I wanted. Adults would tell me that I could achieve anything, go anywhere or be anything that I wanted when I grew up.

Well, I have grown up. And now those same people are the first to tell me that I can’t - that it’s too hard, too risky or just downright impossible. Why do we fan the flames of a child’s dreams, yet extinguish the desires of other adults?

At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter what family, friends or strangers might think. The whole world can say, “You can’t.” But it only takes one person to believe in you.

And that one person is you.

Just in case you need backup: I believe in you, too.

Don’t let everyone else define your reality or diminish your dreams. If you want it - if you really, really want it - and if you are willing to put energy and effort into manifesting your desires… well, I wouldn’t want to bet against you.

You might encounter a million red lights. But it only takes one green light - YOUR green light.

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I’m here to remind you that, “Yes, you can.”

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

U like squid??

I heard this story from other people but whether it is true or otherwise, no one knows…

Anyways, as we all know, fishermen go to sea and spend quite a substantial amount of time there. I was told that it may be as long as weeks, or even more than a month. And ya’ know, spending time out in the sea for such a long period of time tends to result in extreme boredom and loneliness when fishermen are not actively engaging in fishing activities.

To entertain themselves, they smoke, joke and drink. But then again, they can’t be doing that all the time. So what else do they do?... They masturbate. And over time, masturbation went through evolution…

Apparently, the inside of squid resembles the female love canal. And so, it was said that fishermen use squid as a masturbation tool. Yup… they wrap their pole with a squid and do the up and down motion which produces the white lotion.


Have you heard of this before? Is it true?
And… are you a squid lover?

NO for me!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

I.D.I,O,T,S

Have you ever encounter some idiots who just irritate the shit out of you? I am talking about generic idiots, performing idiotic acts that are just pure irritating. They may be different people, but they can be doing the same idiotic things. Let me name you a few…

One type of generic idiots whom I always encounter is those whom I called I-must-press-the-button idiot, always appearing in elevator lobbies. When I am the first to reach the elevator lobby and press the “up” button, the second fella who reaches the lobby just have to do the same. There will be a whole bunch of such idiots who will keep pressing the button, despite knowing that it has been pressed and it won't make the elevator comes faster, all the way till the elevator arrives. Worse, some of these idiots will press it a few times and look at you as though it’s your fault that the elevator is slow. Bunch of idiots!

Next are those idiots who hog the line. No, I am not talking about traffic or any sort of queue, I am talking about those who hog the lines in a economy rice store. These idiots will just stare at the dishes as though they are choosing their life partners. C’mon, make up your mind and get out of the way. How much it costs and how good it tastes will not change if you give them your idiotic stare. Worse, there are those who take one dish and stand there like a model… ponder and hog the line. For goodness sake, once you’ve taken your pick, choose your next dish or pay! What an idiot.


The list goes on but i do not want to carry on whinging. Nuff said.. Its the weekend and its time to relax..

Wish you guys a fabulous weekend!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Flooded with emails

I am sure most of you will agree that working life nowadays evolve around answering e-mails. As I was clearing my inbox and answering some of the so called “urgent” e-mails, I wondered… how was working life like before the days of e-mails?

On any given day, there will be a few mails coming in at the same time inquiring about different situations which require my advice. And in a typical corporate scenario, these inquiries demand immediate reply. And it’s not any ordinary reply. It requires thinking and sometimes, some level of research.

How are these done before the time of e-mails? Through telephone? If it’s through phone, at least you will be engaged on one line if there are 2 inquiries coming in. But with e-mails, you can have up to 10 inquiries in an hour. And inquiries are the light stuff. It can be agreements, contracts or any form of documents being sent over which require my review and comments. And as usual, everything is urgent. If you take more than a week to reply, it means that you are slow.

Without a doubt, the existence of e-mails has accelerated the pace at which we work. We are now required to provide answers, provide comments, review documents and meet all other unreasonable demands at light speed. It’s really crazy.

And don't you just hate it when one sends out a mail to a whole list of people re something and then someone else replies copying the whole army of people just to say "thank you" or something that we really don't give a shit about?? makes you want to go over and smack some senses into their heads, no?

One can say that we have become more efficient. But I just think we have been made to work like robots.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Working politics

I was having a chat with my friend yesterday and the topic of being a fresh graduate kinda trigger me to blog about it today. Well, I have my own time of being a fresh graduate working in a company without experiences and striving to survive working in it, meeting with sarcastic seniors and saving my job at least. I understand how a fresh graduate really feels when they started working in some company.

Firstly, they are taken lightly as they have no experience in anything. And, when they started asking questions on how to do this or what to do for that, they will be harshly answered as well as treated rudely with rude remarks. Seniors never think for a second to respect the fresh graduates / juniors. They never thought that some time ago, they were once a freshie. Well yes, perhaps some fresh graduates may not be as smart as seniors were when they were freshie but then again, it is a senior’s responsibility to groom the freshies up to meet with senior’s expected level, ain’t it? You know, like the mentor and mentee thingy?

No matter how busy a senior is at work, they shouldn’t throw out rude remarks or being a bitch about it and in fact, should be empowered enough to think on how to groom their juniors up so that they can help them to work on whatever the company is focusing on. Somehow, most companies are always lacking in good HR scheme to empower all their staffs. Seniors should always maintain a good and friendly environment that encourages discussion whenever necessary. However, people are always selfish, they wouldn’t share their knowledge, in fear of that their position is being threaten.

That is why, all of us somehow resent the place that we are working in because of the people.

Monday, November 30, 2009

L.O.V.E

I don’t know if I love you… Nor do I know what love is…

But… if love means dreaming of the person every night and doing the same thing when you’re awake, then I guess, this is love. If love means looking every where and every li’l thing seems to remind you of the person, then maybe, this is love. If love means dying to be with someone for every single second of your life, then, this could be love. If love means having to accept the person for who he is and who he’s not, then I believe, I’m in love. If love means being happy just to hear his voice or being complete when you know he calls, then, I’m in love. If love means losing my pride just to tell him what I feel, then, this could really be love.

And if love means hating the person for everything about him, yet deep inside you’re still longing to touch him, hear something about him, see him, or have a glimpse of his picture, talk to him, care for him, hug him, and kiss him, then . . . . dats true love

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Its not the end

I know it is never easy when any marriage or relationship ends for whatever reason the split is whether you wanted it or not. Breaking up from a long term relationship can turn your world upside-down and gives you so much heartache.


Even when the relationship no longer good where it is probably full with resentment, disappointment and shattered dreams, yet when the relationship ends it still do hurt so much. When relationship ends, it disrupted our routines and responsibilities, and introduces uncertainties into our life.

Questions such as “what will be life without him/her?”, “will i find someone else?”, “will i end upbeing alone?”. These questions often seem worse than an unhappy relationship, thus people tend to stick with unhappy relationship due to fear.

Personally to me, ending a relationship is just the same as losing one part of your life such as the loss of companionship, support, hopes, dreams and plans. Thus, I find that either, I ended the relationship or my partner ended it, we are suppose to GRIEVE our losses. Mourn it!

I think it is a normal thing to feel sad, angry, confused and loss when the relationship ends. It will last as long as it takes but will lessen in time. We might feel frightened the most as we feel that we’ve lost everything in our life, we have nothing and that we do not know what to do next.

I believe that all the above are just part and parcel of the process of healing from break up. It is a normal cycle that one needs to go through before one able to moves on. It will be the hardest journey to heal one’s heart but once when it did, one will turn much wiser than before. Thats what i felt anyways..

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Whats your choice??

When a person was betrayed under the spell of love, one will be suffering in a total anguish and one may get too depress over such pain, regardless which gender. Some may go through the thoughts of committing suicide when such drastic change happened, such as losing the other half of his/her life. However, those who are strong enough to stand up again will understand that what don’t break them will make them stronger.

The thing is after going through the entire break up cycle and having their ex asking for a chance back is something that I find totally disturbing. Why? Well, the first thing that came into my mind was, your bf/gf is not a “thing” to have and dump just like that. I wonder why one didn’t try or do their best to care and appreciate what they have but yet when one realized what they’ve lost, then they wanted it back.

Either way, the decision is going to be hard. But one thing is for sure, if you do go back into the relationship, you will be going back into a relationship that is cracked in a way, it''s not the same as before anymore. Even if its patched, there's gonna be lots of scratches and the trust is no longer there. And then, the pain will be tat much more.

Just my 2 cents..

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Volunteer Day

I started my very first volunteering work on 13th Nov with my fellow HP-ites and of cos my BFF, HN, Kiki and Hei Hei. It was part of President Star's Charity which HP have been offering their volunteer services without fail. This year, HP managed to rope in over 1000 employees to offer their volunteer services.

We were dispatched to various organisations from the elderly, orphanages, autism kids, just to name a few. As for my team, we went to a day care centre for the elderly and people with dementia. Many precautions and care has to be taken especially we are dealing with elderly. Some of them need some physical assistance and some of them are wheel chaired bound. However most of them are very healthy and could walk on their own.

Our job as a volunteer there was to take good care of the old folks, entertain them,,talk to them, understand them and most importantly spend an enjoyable day with them. Did i mention, we also conduct games with them? Yeah! It was very entertaining and I can see their happy expressions.. One of the challenges is that, we have to communicate in dialects which is not my forte at all! hahahaha! I have always wanted to be a volunteer for some community work. I happened to get an email asking for help about this volunteering work and that was how we began.

Really very happy doing community work especially when you see them happy,you will feel happy too. After you volunteer your service, you feel happy because you have done something good; you feel useful because you can help others; you feel confident in yourself because you have the ability to contribute to the good of society. The feeling of happiness, of being useful, and of self-confidence has already broadened our vision.

Being a volunteer expands our vision by allowing us to transcend ourselves as receivers and become givers; we go from being a burden on society to being a positive force in society. Before we volunteered, we might not have known that being a volunteer could make our existence so meaningful and fulfilling. Being a volunteer makes me feel happy, useful, and confident and an eye opener too!

Thanks for giving me the chance!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Dope song

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