I am sick!

I am sick. Down with a bad flu, fever and sorethroat!

Its been a long time since I got sick this bad.

Problem is I cannot afford to take medical leave.

The one time I got sick enough to take medical leave, the one time I cannot afford to take any.

Argh..

CU**S

Humans, people, are the worst kind of animals that ever roamed earth. There are people, and there are people. People who live on a daily dosage of self arrogance and wear so many layers of masks that you never know for sure what is real. People who scheme behind your back and befriend you on the front. People who will not think twice to stab you deeply as they smile along with you. People who are always agreeing with you on the front and yet badmouthing you when your back is turned.

These are people who will do anything to see you fall and yet appear like your best friends. These are the survivals of our world, people who will not think twice in hurting you in order to survive. I hate it. Absolutely hated it. A pack of cunts!

Being understanding and respectful

Understanding, such a simple word and yet often not used enough. Why is it so difficult for us to be able to understand the people around you, why they are doing the things that they do and why they are reacting the way they are reacting? Sometimes all it takes is a little open-mindedness and a little sensitivity for us to put ourselves in the shoes of the people around you to avoid any misunderstandings and any unhappiness.

Sometimes, a little understanding and sensitivity are all it needs in the family but it would seem that such simple attibutes are sorely lacking in mine. I am so tired of these all. Not gonna spill the beans yet but those that are close to me will know what i am talking about..

Well.. such a life and family..

End of the world?

I watched the show 2012 on DVD again. For those uninitiated, that is a another Armageddon themed show, just that it really out-do its predecessors with lots and lots of very good cinematography and stunning scenes of massive destructions. There were also scenes of good byes, teary regrets etc; those scenes always tug my heart when I saw it. How does anyone ever, ever know how to break the news to your loved ones that you are not gonna see them anymore? Its quite possibly the most cruel thing that anyone can do to their loved ones.

Then, I began to ask myself, what will I do if I know that today is my last day on earth?

Quite possibly, the first thing that will come to my mind will be how much regrets will I have and followed by how deep are these regrets. Because I strongly believe that every single human have regrets at some point in their life, one way or another. One who has no regrets in his life is either too egoistic to admit or have not really live his life at all. I for one tend to believe that its usually the former.

If you have not catch this show, rent, buy, borrow, steal or whatever. U have to watch this at least once! Ok, I am dozing off here now, so gonna and go lie on my bed. Perhaps you should too.

love is all around us

Everybody have something to say about love. As for me, love is about acceptance, compromise, joy and affection. Love is about companionship. Love conquers all. But when the love is gone it is painful. They said that if you love someone, you should let him go. If he comes back to you, then he is yours. If he doesn’t, then he was never meant to be.

Let him go, you can’t really hold on to someone who doesn’t want you anymore, so there is no point in holding on. Of course it is hurt to let go, no one ever said it would be easy. If a man cannot pick out the gem from among the stones, then he cannot be a very wise and worthy man. If he/she can’t see you as the better man/woman, then maybe, there is a better man/woman out there for you.

So cheer up! Its not the end of the world yet ok?

being selfish

When someone once told me that humans inherently are bad, I find that hard to believe. At that point of time, I was still a naive boy I guess. Then I believe that humans are inherently, well human. We are good inside, and we are not selfish. Never did it struck me that we are inherently black, bad and gross.

As the years go by, my beliefs have changed. I was picked upon, I was kicked upon when I was down and while trying to pick myself up, I was kicked further down and stepped upon.

When I needed help, there was none available. There were those who purposely choose to take advantage of me when I was down and asking for help.

In the end, I can only count on myself, there is no one to depend upon.

Its time I become a selfish person too. Its time I turn into something disgusting to save myself.

I do not think I am going to like it at all.

Sorry, i am just sick of my life..

You are on candid camera!

Some days, we may just feel like frowning. Maybe something ‘bad’ has happened. A loss of some sort. Maybe you did something you’re not proud of. Maybe the cop stopped you for speeding, and wrote you a ticket. Bad day at work. Relationship woes. A myriad of possibilities.

As bad as life may seem, we actually really have it pretty good. Each one of us. Can you think of anyone who is worse off than you right now? I’m sure you probably can. And that there is reason enough for us to cheer up, and be happy. We all can choose how we live our lives. One of those choices is our general outlook we have. What do u want to potray?

Even if you are already happy, see if there’s a way you can offer, even just one more smile to the world. You can shine a light for others, just through the simple act of a smile. I reckon a smile is something that when given away does not take away from the giver. Great reminder that we can make a great impact with such a small gesture. One thing’s for sure: when you smile, people smile back. It’s extremely rare to smile at someone and not have them smile back at you.

Sometimes, when I go grocery shopping, and I notice the checkout person is stressed, I like to smile at them and ask them how they are. Works every time. See the power of smile? So, if you don't have a smile, i will give u one of mine!

I AM SMILING AT YOU NOW.

Its now, not past and not the future

I used to be a perfectionist. I guess I still am sometimes. I’m not your usual perfectionist though. I’ll wait for the perfect time to do something.

Like… “When I’m feeling good, have a good hair day, and someoen smiles at me, and I’m full of confidence, than I’ll go approach him or her and say hi”. And when its 9am, and the weather is good, and I’m not feeling tired, I’ll go running.

Of course, more likely than not, these doesn’t happen. And well, nothing happens. I don’t approach the people who smile at me, I don’t run. There is no place like here, and no time like now. We exist and live here and now, not in the future or the past.

Past experiences are important to guide us in future events, but it is not everything.
The future is important, but it means nothing if we don’t act now! More often than not I realise that by not doing anything now, the opportunity slips us by and never comes back again.
Especially if you wait for the perfect moment to do something.

Take it from me. I’ve waited for too long… to feel good, for the weather to be fine, whatever.They say that good things happen to people who wait. I say that’s rubbish. I waited too long waaaaay too many times and nothing usually happens. If anything, the thing I’m waiting for NEVER comes!

Good things happen to people who ACT, not wait! Yet of course, please don’t go charging at everything. Remember to think things out before acting. But don’t wait too long, or that window of opportunity may be gone forever. I have been there done that. FML..

Happy 2010!!!

WOW! Been so long and its finally 2010!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!

What i have learnt in the past year is that majority of people are selfish pieces of shit that forget everything that had any meaning, and forget that you ever existed. Also, people only want to use you so they can excel in life.

For 2010, i have many many plans. My first plan is that I am going to continue my education and get some good accounting certifications. If all goes well, I should be done in a couple of years and would possess in my hands something really powerful. Afterward, if things go really well, I will be enhancing my career and moving on to bigger and better things.

I learned so much in the past decade, that when I look back, I am still dumbfounded that I have survived it. So, if I wanted to continue this change, I would try to see what other talents I have. What else am I capable of achieving in this life? I am not going to stop or ever plan to. I want to be something in life, and I want it big. I know I am smart, patient, and ready for the challenges. So I can do it.

Last but not least,

Happy 2010! You all deserve happiness if you really wanted to.